Achieving something ?

 So there has been som days have it not ? 

I have had internett problems and trying to get my apartment back together. 
When you decide you are not going to live when 2024 starts there is alot that gets left undone. 
But since life has gottn better (basicly just the fact that Millie has come in to my life) I have to get all the shit together 😜 She means the world to me and nothing will ever make me fail her which means, I need to live. It's hard to go on when in your mind you were not supose to be here this long, so much one neglects when there no longer is a next month to have to plan for. So it takes alot to get everything set beack together. But here we go, doing it!





 

I have had many beautiful walks with Millie and have been loosing alittle weigth, so things are going my way. My way but SLOWLY haha I am so impatient. But trying to give my self some slack and not expect so much from my self. Be kinder to my self is also a thing I am working on. But for some wierd reason I feel like there is hope for the future. There is alot to do but taking everything one step at the time. Need to fix my car which is going to cost alot so I need to work more, so I have been working on my OF and twitch stream. Hoping I can make a online job something I can live of. 
I put my OF from 25 to 9.99 dollars which i dont know if was a good idea or not. I am still new to this platform and need to do more work to get more familiar with it. 
But there will be more content put out on all my platforms going forward. 
If you want to help me achieve some of my goals here are some of my social platforms. I get so happy for every little follow or subcriptions it gives me a sense of achieving something. 
Thank you <3 

Twitch Instagram OF Youtube

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