Diary ?

 Diary ?

So, if you know me, you know that I am quiet these days, and its not the first time I "disapear".
Normally when i dis0apear it's because I don't feel good mentally. 
This time that was not the case, I just needed to not think about social media.

But then something happend. 
Mentally I am doing so much better, but my physical health did something wierd.
I have foggy head aches, nausa terribe balance and it feels like my brain is suffacating. 
I am tired and sluggish ALL THE TIME. 
I should see my doctor and I will. 
But I am scared to be told that I am fine and that he can't find anything wrong with me.
Cuz thats just how it goes 99% of the time. 

I am hoping that I am able to keep this blogg as a diary of sorts. 
The time now is 22:22 here in Norway/Bergen And before I go to bed I will tell you about my day. 

I woke up feeling okey and as always Mille wanted snuggles before we got up. 
When I got out of bed my neck tensed up and my dizzyness started. 
But we went outside so that Millie could pee. 
Getting back in I realized that this would be a slow day. 
But I got alot done the only way I know how when I feel terrible. 
I play a round of Dead By Daylight and then do a thing that I need to do then I play a round and do a thing i need to do. Get it ? 
The list of things I did was Giving all my mice new water and food and made sure their wheels were in order, then I made a salat for my Bunny (yes I got a bunny, shut up) I brushed my teeth, washed my face and body. Then i broomed the bunny room and gave him fresh water, gave Millie food and water.
Cleaned all my feeder cages and gave them food. Fed my spiders and cleaned the bathroom. 
My brother and his girlfriend came and took me with them to the pet store and drove me to buy groseries. 
But this was very demanding and took alot form me physically. I also went for 2 walks with Millie which also just knocked me out. I feel like crap and tomorrow i will order a doctors appointment. 
My head is pounding, my body is beat and my eyes are droopy so I will go to bed now. 

I hope you have love in your life and have no illness. 

✨Res✨

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