First Blog

 First blog 

20.01-2024
So tonight I slept terrible woke up multible times during the night, but getting up in the morning is always a joy with Millie next to me she really makes my day better.  

We have come in to a rutine witch she really has been relying on så when I wake up i have to put on clothes and take her for a walk first thing in the morning so she can do her thing. We have alot of snow rigth now and it is beautiful. It's always a short walk since she knows that breakfast is waiting at home so whenever she has done her nr 2 she turns and starts walking back home haha. Then we all eat breakfast me, her and my cat Flash.  



This blog wil probably not be very exciting and it's just going to be about my everyday life. 
But I need to work on my english writing and I thought maybe it would be fun to blog. 

Since I slept terrible we just had a calm day on the sofa with The Nun and The Nun 2. I fell asleep during both haha but have seen the movies before and I love them.
I have not talked to anyone today in real life but answerd 3 people online. Contact with other people are rare for me and something I choose. I always wonder why I dont miss people like normal people do. I do miss people I get romantic with but I don't miss family and friends and I feel like there is something wrong with me because of that. Why am I so ok with not having human contact? 
And also when I am going to the store and I have Millie in the car I CAN MISS HER FROM THE STORE !!!! Like WTF haha I always knew I enjoyed the company of animals moore then the company of people but this feels wierd. 


Aaand that was todays rant haha 
It was nice to just have to day to relax and not clean or tidy the house or anything like that just take the 3 walks a day with Millie and enjoy movies and tea. 
I hope everyone has a great weekend <3 
And see you at the stream tomorrow !

✨Res✨

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