One day, two day, 3 day, 4 been struggeling 4 sure

 5 in 1

23.01-2024 
Got alot done in the appartment tidied up really nicely, and had a visit that was both kozy and also a big minfuck at the same time. And thats all that happend that day haha try to make a blog on that alone huh ? Haha we watched some Supernatural tho that was nice!


24.01-2024 
Wednesday became a lazy day but went for groseries and bought Mille a new harness and flexi lead since she actually have grown alot bought one that she can use for a good long time now since she will be growing alot more I dont wanna waste money and new harness every month.

 I rehoused my P.irminia that was fun and she looks so beautiful. And not much moore happend that day haha.

25.01-2024  
Thursday became another lazy day where i cleaned one mouse enclosure and Millie and I layed around naping and playing.
26.01-2024 
Friday I picked up my sister we made tacoes ate candy and we beaded bracelets witch all got ruined cuz we cant tie for shit haha She held and cuddled basicly all my mice which is 12 of em haha



27.01-2024 
Today's been a mind grind kinda day. Been thinking alot, hate the fact that i am not healthy enough to work cuz beeing broke is so damageing to the mental health when you always worry about rent and power bills vet bills and doctor vissits bills. I just wish I could fix my self so I could work and make money. Wish my brain could forget it has CPTSD but nothing is that easy I guess. 
When I drove to get my sister on thursday I had to drive down to a loation the triggers my trauma attacks and my body tenses up and I hold my breath without notesing. Its not as bad as it used to be but it's still takeing alot of energy from me. And I am going down there on thirsday as well to help my dad so its gonne be tough but i also think that it will be like some kind of exposure therapy I guess.



If you botherd to read this far thank you so much and will see you in the next one or in stream tomorrow 💕

✨ Res ✨
 






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